This episode is the story of how the SPLIT Podcast came to be. I hope you learn more about the story you are in right now, and I hope that brings about more hope for you
This is the FINAL episode of the SPLIT Story, but not the end of the Podcast. Next week, this podcast will change names from SPLIT to BE FREE- and I couldn't be more pumped about it. Thank you for listening to this story and sharing it out with your friends. The beginning of this episode is about STORY, the BE FREE PARTY (September 23rd, 7pm, Mantra Coffee Company) and the future of this movement. The BE FREE shirts are on their way to me, and you can order yours at befreestories.com (BE FREE means you are a safe person to come out to!) I love you guys, thank you for listening, and I can't wait to see you all at the Be Free Party.
Kyle wrote me a letter about the story of our friendship. I read the letter out loud with him sitting by me, so that I could crash into him every time I came to a section I couldn't bear. Once again, he held me, and he cried with me.
This episode documents the first time I ever recorded my own story for someone else to read. Kyle asked me to write down everything that happened between us, and I don’t think there is anything more beneficial that I could have done after everything happened (If you haven’t tried this, I highly recommened WRITING down your own story – you may find that there is more there than you think, and you may begin to make some new connections between seemingly random experiences in your past).
Also, there are a ton of announcements in the beginning of this episode about the Be Free Party!! I’m so excited to begin unveiling what the evening will look like by telling you some of the incredible artists that will be joining us!
Peace and Freedom my friends!
To be honest, this is me trying something new. This is me giving a free flow of thought, conversation, and story (which I believe is the answer). I hope it helps to bring about reconciliation and grace.
The moments in our lives in which we enter a doorway through which we cannot return. The moments when we realize we were chasing after something we wanted instead of something we needed for so long. The moments when everything finally begins to fit together, and we become whole. The moments when true love drives out our fear.
Usually, when I am at a loss as to what I should do next, I try to figure out what it is I am most afraid to do. Oftentimes, what I am most afraid to do and what I want to do the most are the exact same thing and in order to get moving towards that thing, I need others to push me towards it.
With just a month left in college, a new hope came about in my life. It was something that I thought I never wanted, but I couldn't see that I needed it until the facades of perfection were lifted.
Although it seemed counter-intuitive to continue to see Kyle, there was just one thing I needed him to know. I needed him to know exactly how I felt because I couldn't bear the thought that he didn't know how treasured he is.
Have you ever taken a moment to stop and recognize all the ways you are inhibiting other people from loving you? How many things you are hiding, how many things you assume about the way they'll respond to your truth, how many things you wish to change about yourself before you share your story with the world.